Madlawstudent's Blog

whooooshh whooooosh whoooooosh…that is what I have to hear as a substitute to good old silence, oh its so underrated, I love you silence, please come back into my life. Sinusitis…deadlier than it sounds, it has formed a rather nice bond to me and refuses to show any signs of leaving resulting in my sanity (and sleep) levels being at an all time low. It seems my body is falling apart, migraines, backache oh my body needs reminding its only 20 years old.

Okay now that we’ve got that out of the way I can talk about what’s been happening with me. I have gone back to university (yayy) and instead of writing of this post I should be writing a 3000 words assignment but I ALWAYS leave everything last minute, I don’t know what it is about me but deadlines don’t seems to phase me at all until its too late. I am far too relaxed for my own good and I wish I wasn’t. I can still remember preparing for my GCSE’s the night before drugged up to the eyeballs with pro plus and puking up on my maths paper the next day! I’m brilliant and making plans, really fancy colourful ones all over my flat walls breaking down every task into manageable chunks but do I follow it? NO!! I guess its just the way I am, not going to change now…I do manage to get things done though in the end…at the last second…at the very last millisecond sometimes.

Before I forget the very lovely Michael (thanks again) over at Law Actually wrote a lovely piece about me, check it out here

Its 1:48 am and I sit here wearing what they call ’shapewear’. Now these promise a drop in dress size without any dieting or exercise so being a sucker for commodities I bought one. At first glance it just looks like a pair of oversized knickers with their not so fetching lace trim, once on it squish everything into a manageable chunk that doesn’t look as bad!
Now they have delivered in their promise, I tried on all my wardrobe and lo and behold I’m a size 8 again (yayyy). Now I would like to add that although they are so very uncomfortable and make me feel like I have been inserted into a giant sausage machine, they perfectly replicate the feeling of being hugged rather aggressively. So if you’re feeling a bit down and could do with a hug which I suspect you might be if you’re on a diet, forget the diet and buy yourselves one of these!

I know I have been going on about weddings for eternity I promise I will stop in a few weeks! (I hope). Indian weddings aren’t known for their simplicity and I have been requested to learn a dance, now I can’t promise It’ll be anything like the one below but I shall give it my best shot! (the fat lady at the start is a bollywood dance legend btw)

Apologies for the long gap between posts, will let you know how the wedding goes, fingers crossed!

I have no idea, i guess its wierd in a way that anyone that logs onto this page will know my thoughts and goings on in my life whilst in ‘real-life’ i find myself a very private person only revealing my true feelings to a select few. I think thats the beauty of blogs really, no one to judge, no-one can to hold your feelings against you.

This week has been full of revealations and truths some of which I wish had remained buried in the past. It turns out that my very butch teacher from school who played a very destructive part in my life and had an amazing gift for zapping self-confidence and esteem was in fact a man who dressed up for work every morning as a laydee. Mrs Doubtfire eat your heart out.

As I sit here in front of my laptop writing this entry I am reminded of how much law study I have left. Its not a feeling of excitment or happiness, more dread and fear of what is to come. If i’m being really honest I cant say i’m enjoying law at all. In fact I actively avoid it for as long as possible and rush the assignments day before the deadline before I forget about them for another month. I know my true calling is for midwifery and always will be, I just sometimes wish I could channel that motivation towards law.

Also just a quick update on the job front, I did manage to fill in the appliaction form for the receptionist and I have an interview next week which I am trying hard to forget about for now.

Just been filling out an application for a receptionist job for the summer, finding it harder than expected. Give me an interview any day or a university application form but I seem to crumble when it comes to writing down my qualities for the job and about previous jobs. I mean how do you make an unqualified teacher in a school that shouldn’t even be open in my opinion with a slob as headteacher sound good on a job application form. As for the other job I has I was forced to quit that by my boss who didn’t want to upset the rest of the team. So all is not looking well experience-wise but I shall soldier on, even I cant be rejected for this job.

Cheerio, have a good weekend xx